{"id":107,"date":"2009-03-05T13:03:41","date_gmt":"2009-03-05T18:03:41","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/appalachia.matthewmosher.us\/2009\/03\/05\/reason-7\/"},"modified":"2009-03-05T13:03:41","modified_gmt":"2009-03-05T18:03:41","slug":"reason-7","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.matthewmosher.com\/appalachia\/intent\/reason-7\/","title":{"rendered":"Reason #7"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Control.<\/p>\n<p>This is the poorest reason to embark on hiking the Appalachian trail, especially when one wants to meditate, and I am most ashamed about it. <\/p>\n<p>I feel like I have no control over my life. Maybe everyone feels that way, but I feel over the last two years ( since returning from India really) I have been throwing myself against a brick wall. I&#8217;ve sent out over 100 cover letters and over 20 residency proposal and have not had anything positive come out of either endevour besides a brief internship and a temp job. I couldn&#8217;t even get a job at starbucks. So in a bizarre way I feel trapped, almost forced into hiking the trail. I don&#8217;t know what else to do, what else to try. This is also why I&#8217;m going to grad school, and I was so scared I&#8217;d be blocked out of that, too. Of course I wanted to work at an architecture or design firm for a year or two first, but no dice. I am so tired of people telling me &#8220;no&#8221;.  <\/p>\n<p>So I walk. Because I want to. Because I have to. And because no one can tell me I can&#8217;t. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Control. This is the poorest reason to embark on hiking the Appalachian trail, especially when one wants to meditate, and I am most ashamed about it. I feel like I have no control over my life. Maybe everyone feels that way, but I feel over the last two years ( since returning from India really) [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[5],"tags":[17,29,41],"class_list":["post-107","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-intent","tag-control","tag-job","tag-residence"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.matthewmosher.com\/appalachia\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/107","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.matthewmosher.com\/appalachia\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.matthewmosher.com\/appalachia\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.matthewmosher.com\/appalachia\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.matthewmosher.com\/appalachia\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=107"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/www.matthewmosher.com\/appalachia\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/107\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.matthewmosher.com\/appalachia\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=107"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.matthewmosher.com\/appalachia\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=107"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.matthewmosher.com\/appalachia\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=107"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}